Sunday, June 11, 2006

What a start to the summer

Honest to god my life is the definition of irony. Out of nowhere a wonderful new emotion blossoms, unexpected, refreshing and real. And before it has even started fate steps in and makes it impossible.

I belong to a society of people who rely on certain rules to stop bloodlines from mixing. It’s how we continue to have intra caste marriages without committing incest.

And yet today after heading out and buying a lovely dress; in full anticipation and excitement for being asked to be a guy’s date at his graduation ball, I come to learn from a good friend that we are from the same temple.

I feel so shattered. I felt deserving of his attention and was very flattered that he seems to reciprocate my initial interest.

Question now is:
Do I tell him even before anything happens between us and walk away for it never can be?
Or play with the possibilities for we aren’t even sure if this is going to go anywhere just yet? Do I wait until this initial attraction turns into a flame before admitting to the fact that I know this will never be?
Or do I let it grow to a point here we both cannot walk away from it? Or do I just walk away now and avoid hurting more later on?

Why, why does this always happen to me???

3 Comments:

Blogger goh said...

Dont start even you cant end! coming from the same temple is actually tantamount to incest in a way.... i know it's screwed up..but that your community! They need to get a life!

Life is full of irony...and trials! U have to keep having faith in fate and hope it doesnt give up on yea before you give up on it! Now..does this make send?

2:01 PM  
Blogger goh said...

oops..i meant to say..dont start when you cant end!

2:01 PM  
Blogger disorientated said...

Hey, hadn't checked this in forever. Interestingly it has started and it is continuing. i see you are shaking your head. Well only time can tell. I am better off with someone who loves me then someone who is a pathological liar!

5:32 PM  

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